Enveloping Me in LOVE

It's unexplainable
real-er than anything I can see, taste, touch
more true than the friend who was just standing there...
   in the cold of the night 
   twenty-six inches from my face
a complete reality upon which I long to gaze
but through the veil for this season is enough

You offer dignity to me in it
belonging
wholeness
worth

Beauty radiates as I step into it
like a Rocky Mountain sunset
like insatiable laughter
like a mother after she's given birth

And I feel that beauty
as if it has been mine all along
it sweeps over me
pours into me
overflows from the inmost part of me

I belong to it and it to me
we were separated, that beauty and me
there was darkness, unkindness, incoherent deceit
lies took root, I didn't know what to believe

Yet now I smile at my sadness
I still don't comprehend where this road goes
but You hold my hand and walk me toward life
You lead me along a sturdy pathway
enveloping me, all the while, in LOVE.

Pursuing & Holding Fast to Truth

It's the middle of the night. I woke up out of pretty intense dreams, receiving clarity on a piece of something I've chosen to walk into very intentionally recently. As I considered it, I was bombarded with a slew of other thoughts. I feel a little taken back by the way the lies are coming at me as I'm pursuing the truth. Though, I shouldn't be surprised...

The fiery darts are being thrown in quick succession; I feel tired. I wonder how to shield myself from the attack while continuing to walk in what is true. This was one of the thoughts that came as I surfaced to awareness from my last dream:

"You already know this stuff about yourself... There is nothing anyone can do to help you out of it. You already know it..."

And another:

"This stuff has become part of who you are... It's too entrenched to be removed."

Even in my sleepiness, there's something I understand and I want to state it clearly: I disagree with these statements offered to me as if they're 1) my own thoughts 2) true! I refuse to believe and walk in them. Jesus has purchased my freedom and already knows the road out from here. I'm so thankful for THAT truth.

Leaning in; pressing on.